Mar. 13, 2002 :: 4:09 am

mas ramblings

Ok it's late again, it's seems like the only time I ever write in this thing is really late at night. It's all good though. Anyhoo Joby writes me today saying IF we get married he's thinking about changing his last name...and I'm thinking married??? That would be cool though, I think I would be really happy with that. I could totally spend the rest of my life with him. I can see it happening. I love him so much, and it feels so weird to hear him say it, or type it or whatever. It just feels so new and different. I never imagined he would though. The funny thing is that we only dated for almost two months, then he moved away, and then he asked me to come live with him. Now he's telling me he loves me. He put on this total front before he left too. Like Mr.ToughGuy, or something. So funny, but I understand why he did it because I did the exact same thing. I was scared to death of getting hurt more than I was hurting, I let myself get too attached, too soon. But so did he I guess. But i'm thinking it's all for the better, I hope anyway. I still don't know how I managed to pull this one off. I seem to have this knack for making guys fall in love with me, i can't help it! But it always happens some way or another. It's not that I want them to or anything though. They always fall for me. I'm too damn nice, i seem nice anyway. I can be mean. But i hate to be mean. Anyway I'm rambling. Its funny I sent Joby that song today, cuz he was asking for some new music. I sent him the Blue6 - Sweeter Love song, he really liked it :D He said it's rad how our music tastes parrallel, which i think is awesome because no one ever likes the same stuff I'm into! My last ex-boyfriend, Eriq, is a complete psycho, but I totally got him into Drum 'n bass, he can't get enough of it, he likes it so much he started producing it himself. He's actually quite good though, Dj Rap is talking about helping him get some of his stuff on vinyl, cool huh? But Eriq is a whole other story, he's my psycho ex. But my point was that we have totally different tastes in music. He likes crap and I like good stuff. :D Simple. Anyway I should go to sleep. I'm off to dream of my sweetie, wishing he was here.

<3, Shuga

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